A little more....

Sorry to be so brief yesterday. I am still pretty bummed about our court outcome and have no desire to start bawling again. But, I feel I should explain a little better.

Our court date was postponed because a piece of paperwork was missing. This piece of paperwork is from MOWA (Ministry of Woman's Affairs in Ethiopia) and every case has to have one. From what I understand, MOWA is notorious for waiting until the last minute to add that document and if it is not there, you do not pass. Our agency said that MOWA had been off for a couple of days and therefore didn't add that document to any of the cases like they were suppose to. Our agency was expecting all their cases going before court yesterday and today to be postponed because of this.

Really, this is just beyond my ability to grasp. It made our big court date seem so arbitrary. I mean what was the point? The MOWA letter has to be there, MOWA knows that, the court knows that, what a waste of time.

Also, a month until another court date?? I mean seriously. I have seen people get rescheduled for court in like a week, maybe two, but a month?!? Even then, we have no reassurance we will pass. For all I know they didn't even look at the rest of our documents. I really do realize that as ridiculous as this is, it is part of the process. My heart though, aches for our son. I want him home. We have just added at least another month.

God is still faithful though. Our whole family prayed that God's will would be done with court. I trust that His will is perfect, even when it is beyond my understanding.

Yesterday, Ryan called back after the initial news to reming me that this must be God's will for Asher right now (yes, I very much needed reminded of that right then). Well, as soon as I got off the phone Logan came down stairs and said "you know mom, maybe God has a reason for Asher not passing, and we just don't know it yet." Thank you Lord, for surrounding me with a faithful family!

I really want to add to this post, that my baby girl is FOUR today. Even though court has been a downer, it has been nice to be celebrating the life and birth of one of my precious kiddos. Madeline is such a little firecracker and blessing to me. She was the baby that we conceived right after loosing our twins from Russia. The Dr.'s told me that we would miscarry her and took me off all medicine I was taking to sustain the pregnancy. I honestly don't know if I have ever been so down in my life. Then, a week later we had an ultrasound "just to be sure" and there she was. Her heart was beating and she was perfect. I am still amazed. Although is does not surprise me at this point that she was a fighter, even then.

So much has happened and it is hard to believe that this time four years ago, I was laying in a hospital room holding my minutes old baby girl. Madeline, I love you more than you will ever know. I feel extremely blessed to have been given such an amazing gift.

Julie